Somewhere in the middle of all the crazy, the noisy, the messy, the overwhelming, You are there. You find me, still small, too small for all this day holds up for me to manage, and You offer me Your strength.
Treading hard to keep my head above the rush of current that sweeps me up into moments of relentless trying-hard, You fill my lungs with Your breath of grace. I inhale the fragrance of Your life poured out so that Your Spirit in me is my strength. You didn't mean for me to ever try to face the swells alone. You know I can't. So You have made a way for me.
Why, so many days, do I press hard through deep waters and carry the weight of this life without You? Why do I sometimes let my heart feel overwhelmed in the middle of days You've already promised to spend with me? When will I get this grace and faith and peace walk right?
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you." Isaiah 43:2
You are patient with me, Lord. You never complain when I need You to teach me the same lesson over and over. You see the tender heart You gave me. You know its limitations, and You so gently cover me with Your faithfulness. You quiet the storms in me with Your sweet voice. You lead me through the days I fight to conquer on my own, and You love me even in my stubbornness.
I don't deserve You, and You give Yourself to me still.
Please teach me to how to live each of my moments in the fullness of Your grace, to let Your peace and love flood my life, so that all I have to give out is grace. The burdens I struggle to surrender, the dreams I don't know how to let go of, please help me uncurl my fingers from around those things that I hold onto more tightly than I do Your hand.
Show me how to raise up little lives in Your grace alone and by Your Word and Your Spirit. I know I have to be good at recieving all this from You if I'm going to be good at giving it to them. Thank You, Lord, that You give me what I don't deserve. Thank You for all You've entrusted to my care and promise to help me do for Your glory.
Thank you for helping me breathe in the fullness of Your grace.
"The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus." 1 Timothy 1:14