"Yes." That's where it all starts. At the yes. And faith doesn't swell up in the unknowing, before-hand moments. It is the answer we give without knowing how or when or sometimes even exactly what. But we always know why... Because He has asked this of us.
A "yes" in the midst of not enough and no clue how and not at all qualified is the offering. It's the giving up dependence on ourselves. Giving up the comfort zone. The cost of obedience to a God who has all the resources of the universe at His disposal is the willingness to let go of that small bit of what we presume is under our control. Although it never really has been. Not really.
And we embrace the unknown future with a sense of eagerness and wonder, knowing the story we are living has an Author whose plans for us are good. We know that any story He writes for us is one worth living. And worth living with abandon.
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1
The way I write a story is to map it out... to know the way the pieces fall into place before it's all been written down and fleshed out. But that's not the way to live a good story.
The real secret is in the yes. The yes, no matter what. The yes, period. When God asks us to do something too big for us, too expensive for us, to hard for us, it is because that is when we finally get out of the way and trust in Him alone. He orchestrates the details. He puts people in our lives to become part of the story. And it all starts with saying yes. It's a leaping without needing to look, trusting that what springs up from obedience to the Lord will be a beautiful harvest.
"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." Hebrews 11:6
Over and over, I am so blessed by the help we are receiving from people who are eager to help us get to Ukraine this summer. I struggled at first with the asking for help. It's not what I'm comfortable doing. And that's just pride. It's not good, and it's something God's stripping away, layer by layer. It's been so incredible to ask for help and to see people catch the vision for helping these kids we've come to love. And in sharing, more people have come to love these kids as well.
Today, I was at Borders (the Bangor store is THE best!) having my favorite latte, and I was so encouraged and excited to hear that they're collecting bags of flavored coffee for us to take to the caregivers in Ukraine! What a treat for them! This outreach has become something bigger than just ours alone. It's something our community and friends and family are joining with us in making possible, and all the fruit that is a result of the time we spend there belongs to all of you as well.